Fact of my life - 4 ( I can't breastfeed my son)

My life is totally disturbed. Because I'm not able to feeding my son. Why God why?😔 Always you gave me half happiness in my life. When I realized I was pregnant that time I'm so much happy because I want baby in my life to become good mother. But when I was gave birth to my child I realized that I can not produced a mother milk. But I have lots of hope from God to listen my prayers and maybe I got milk but as always I got half happiness. Without mother milk how can I feed my son. And we choose formula milk for my son. 

I felt like I'm not being properly mother because main thing is that to close baby to our breast n feed them but I didn't got it chance. 

My baby suffering from loose motion. Because we know that without mother milk baby is not comfortable to digest other milk. 

Its very hard to grow up my baby till 6th months and still remaining 3 months.

Sometimes I feel like God have personal issues with me. Because he gave me lots of problems in my life. Without problems he never have me a little thing. 

And mostly if a lady is not able to produce a milk for her baby than our "society" is like she wearing bra's, tight suit, T-shirt that's why she is not giving a milk but in my case I'm not wearing bra's, tight suit, T-shirt.

I hear lots of taunts from my mother in law. And I haven't answers to give her.  

After complete a month and I listened that now a days lots of ladies suffering from less mother milk or can't produce mother milk. Lots of my nearest persons suffering from this problem. 

Precious time for me (8th month of pregnancy)

 I'm 8th month pragnent 🤰

          Suffering from lots of body problems like back pain, leg swelling and pain, sometimes headache, vomiting etc. 

          But I'm enjoying my pregnancy phase. When I was convinced that time felt like OMG 9th months how can I handle but when I entered in 8th month, my feeling is OMG I'm entering in 8th month, time is very fast. 

          8th month of pregnancy is like mix of lots of feelings. Afraid of labour pain, happiness for baby's movement, excited for baby's welcome in my life.

Fact of my life - 3

     Hey my life... Why are you so disturbed?😥 

I'm very helpless because I don't understand how can I enjoy my precious time...! 

     I'm 6th month pragnent and at the stage of pragancy everyone tells me be happy, be careful, be active, but I'm very disturbed in my soul. Because I'm tired from taunting. I'm very happy with my husband because he never denied to be happy and enjoyment but my mother in law not supporting me properly. Because she always talking with her daughters about me, like how I work, what I work, what I wear, eat, drink, walk, talk, everything, and I listen everything when they are talking about me. They pretending like they are talking about someone else but I know what they are doing most of the days. I'm not giving the answer because I know that, I'm pregnant so this is bad effect on my child. I want to tell my husband what his mother doing with me but I feel like घर का माहोल खराब हो जाएगा। But now its to difficult to me. 

     I write my feelings on blogs because I want to tell everything but I don't have a person who listen my real life story.  

Fact of my life - 2

I'm suffering from 6th month of pregnancy. I need good atmosphere but I can't get it, because of my mother in law taunting me most of the days. So feel very sad, because I feel like very unhappy. She never understand my situation, always she compared with her daughters. My both sisters in laws living separate and I'm living with my in laws so both situations are different but they don't understand. Again and again I'm not happy to tell everything with my husband because he feels like who is correct and who is wrong. And my mother in law always pretending like she is right so what should I do, I don't understand. I want to tell everything with my parents but I don't want to disturb them. I want to tell my husband but I feel like what he understand and what he believes so I feel like everything depends on God. But I feel like कब तक चलेगा ये सब😥

Fact of my life - 1

         "જેનો પ્રેમ પરિસ્થિતિ ને આધારે હોય એના આધારે ક્યારેય ના રહેવું."

      (Never depend on someone whose love is based on circumstances.)

Thought of my life

Thought of 20/10/2021

चाहा किसी और को,

माँगा किसी और को,

मिला कोई और,

ख़ेर, इससे ज्यादा unpredictable क्या हो सकते हैं?

Tat(s) my result 2023

 How much I m fool..... 

I have chance to fly but as always I'm not talking serious anything. I know what right and what is wrong.... 

If we know what is right and wrong and we are wasting time on those who not deserve it. 

Tat(s) is my hope to fly but I'm losing it. Now what for my career....

Tat(s) marit is 70 and I got 62.5 

My silly mistakes give me slap on my cheek and said this is your punishment to wasting a time silly girl. 

My mother very disappointed. And I'm also very angry on me but my heart said why are you so much irresponsible? Why are you not taking a chance for  improving life? 

Very sad feeling.... 😣